Off the Happy Juice

So this is my newest struggle, all of us know that once you get through one thing something else is lurking just around the corner...... 3 years ago I got on and anti depressant anti anxiety med. I was having some really tough struggles after having my two kids. Let me just say I am so thankful for the help I got from these meds, and for the doctor who helped me see that this wasn't just an easy way out of my problems. Man my life was in a fog, and I had a hard time even getting up and dressed every day. So I took some steps to pull myself out of the pit. I also got some Christian counseling and started exercising every day. All these things together really helped me to get out of my funk. Now in the last month I felt the Lord calling me to rely on him fully. I knew that medicine wasn't a life long solution. Nor did I want it to be, so I went to see my doc and he agreed now was a good time to get off the "happy juice" Well It's been tough. Lots and lots of highs and lows. Some days I wake up and don't even feel like getting up. Other days I feel great. but each week I feel a little better. I really like being off these things! I mean I get so much more excited about stuff.....and although I've had some really bad days all in all I'm glad I did it. I'm thankful to God for being strong in my weakness. I have lifted my eyes unto the hills and found that my help truly comes from the Lord. What a wonderful feeling! When I make myself vulnerable to him, stand before him as I am, he really does come and meet me. It's a wonderful thing to experience! I have to say my poor husband has caught the brunt of all the mood swings, I'm sorry for this, he has been very understanding. Wow I love that man.....what a gift. So Here I am, this is me, stripped bare.....I like it.......